Tom Smith

 

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©2006

Thomas G. Smith

 

Long as I can see the light…*

 

Blogs from previous months here.

December 2006 Cancer Blog

 

Posted December 14, 2006

I’ve had a little something to worry about, but it’s better now!

About a month ago, the “twinges” I had been experiencing in my upper right chest and shoulder area gradually became pains. Now, let me tell you, I don’t mean to be paranoid, but if you’re a cancer patient sometimes it really can’t be helped. As the pain seemed to become worse bit by bit, it was impossible not to compare it to what I felt back in March and April, when the cancer was having its way with my upper ribcage. That was the beginning of this challenge, and I thought maybe old Big C was on the move again. Over the counter painkillers have been enough to keep the edge off; things have not been bad enough to return to the prescription stuff, but the psychology is somewhat devastating.

Dr. Goldberg had authorized CT and bone scans for January. On my own, I went ahead and had them done a month early, on Monday, Dec. 11. Dr. Goldberg sent me an email that night to let me know he had seen the test results but was awaiting comparisons to my previous scans. So, all day Tuesday I was wondering. No word. On Tuesday night, I emailed Dr. Goldberg my cell phone number and told him I’d like to know soonest.

The phone rang Wednesday morning. The news was good. The mass is not showing any signs of renewed growth. If anything, it is a bit smaller than it was at the time of my previous scan in October. I do believe the good doctor was bemused to hear my obvious tone of joy at this news. Most cancer patients probably hope or expect news that the tumor is gone or vastly reduced, but I’m beyond all that. I am more than happy to have everything standing still. There is the little matter of the pain, but it’s a lot easier to take now.

Friends, family and I speculate that the pain could be coming from the bone damage already done by the cancer. Or it could be scar tissue stretching internally, scar tissue created by the radiation treatments. No big deal. We’ll figure it out when we figure it out. We’re carrying on. From our family to yours, we wish you a wonderful Advent and a glorious Christmas season. It has been a year to remember.

To be continued…

 

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* Long as I can see the light…

The words below come from “Long as I can see the light,” written by John Fogerty and first appearing on the Creedence Clearwater Revival album, “Cosmo’s Factory,” in 1970.

If it is possible for anyone’s cover of this song to beat CCR, it would be the version by the late Ted Hawkins, recorded on his 1994 album, “The Next Hundred Years.”

 

Put a candle in the window,

'cause I feel I've got to move.
Though I'm going, going,

I'll be coming home soon,
'Long as I can see the light.
Pack my bag and let's get movin',

'cause I'm bound to drift a while.
When I'm gone, gone, you don't have to worry long,
'Long as I can see the light.

Guess I've got that old trav'lin' bone,

'cause this feelin' won't leave me alone.
But I won't, won't be losin' my way, no, no
'Long as I can see the light.

Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Oh, Yeah!

Put a candle in the window,

'cause I feel I've got to move.
Though I'm going, going,

I'll be coming home soon,
Long as I can see the light.
Long as I can see the light.
Long as I can see the light.
Long as I can see the light.
Long as I can see the light

 

John Fogerty